What should I do, what you should do

 It has been raining for quite a while. 

I like rains but when it rains non-stop without a break for quite a long time, the atmosphere feels dreary.

It's dark, it's wet, it's scary.  

Have you ever looked into the ocean or sea and felt like just going in and in... but never do that.

At the last moment you realize, if you intentionally go deep into something and you know you shouldn't, you won't have any ground to hold onto and it would be your fault. 

I have read somewhere, that when people are the at the last moments of their lives, especially when they are the one who are trying to end it, just a few moments before they meet the evitable turned inevitable, they regret it. And regret is something that we don't want in our lives.

Life's too short to live with regrets and long enough to take chances. 

But you know, sometimes I feel scared. I feel like everyone of you out there feel like that as well. Can you do that? Do you deserve it? Are you capable enough to do that? 

Well, listening to something motivational, some random person out there saying, "you deserve it", "you can do it", does give a little bit of boost but that's just temporary. The balloon goes whoosh after just a small amount of time. How long am is outside fire going to work?

The fire should come from inside.

You know what's ironic? You know what you should be doing, but you are being a sissy and trying to postpone it, postpone all the work, postpone all the connections, postponing your whole life. 

Haa, just act on it dummy. The fire is already within you, don't try to intentionally block it. 


On a side note, music always helps me. But then again, listening to it for more than a few hours gives me a headache and makes me dislike it for a while. 

So everything should be in moderation. 

AHOY

Signing off for now, 
LezzLeah~

Introduction (Also a note to my future self)

 Hello, to anyone reading this! This includes random peeps across the globe and my future self (I hope you look at this after a long time and cringe and smile at this absurdity!)

 
I'm Lesliea! You could pronounce it as Lezz-leah~

 I created this blog so that I could work on being consistent.
I'll try to if school doesn't bog me down. There I go again, writing contradictory statement the very next line. But once a week is definitely happening! 

(Ah, there I go once again. If I want to I can definitely make a little bit of time to post something. And not just blame the whole thing of not being able to do that at school).

So the things that I'm gonna write here/do~

1. Random thoughts and why were they generated. Everything always has a source, though it doesn't necessarily mean that you can always track the source down. But you can always try.

2. Try to apply what I say to my own-self! Like really, I've been told that I'm a pretty good motivator,  listener but when it comes to my own-self, the motivation goes off in a poof! 
 Though there's also the fact that every person has a different motivation, if it's not respect it should be fear. But there exists some on whom both don't work! Oof. What a dilemma. (Ah! I'm getting side-tracked again!)

3.Whenever there's a negative thought incoming (some of those thoughts are like roaches! Really annoying kinda immortal and super persistent! That makes you scream like a sissy the moment it starts flying!).
Alright, the analogy might or might not have made any sense >.<
So what I mean is, whenever such thoughts come in, I'm gonna crush it then throw it away. And think from where it came. Followed by working on the root of the cause and thinking positively.

4. Stop being pessimistic! Don't get me wrong, I'm actually pretty optimistic but sometimes I get so pessimistic that I myself surprise myself later whenever I reflect on the thoughts I had earlier!

5. Try to write down all the smol and big thoughts I have.

That's it for now, I gotta complete my assignment \o/

Signing off, 
Lezz-leah~

(See ya soon!)